Once again a beautiful day out! Its so warm, you don't need a jacket. If I had someone to play catch with and my glove down here Id be outside playing catch. Its not very often in November you get to be outside when its absolutely gorgeous out! Haven't really done much today. I did however get the oil changed in my car, thanks to Jeff and Ely. Those guys are halarious, and there so nice to! We just bought the oil and the filter and they changed the oil for me and didnt charge me for the labor! SO thanks again guys that was really cool of you! I am thinking about going home tonight maybe. Not sure yet. Need to get a hold of vedder and see if she is coming down. If she is I think its worth the pilgrimage back home. I don't know. Jim has been so good to me this week with my car and all that I think I should stay the weekend here, even though he is telling me to go home cause he wants me to see my old friends and my family. We shall see though. Christina (who is an old friend of mine) wrote a very heated e-mail to me because of a forward. We haven't been getting along lately (for reasons I will not explain because I feel its between me and her and no one else, I don't need rumors flying around that she did this, I did that, she said that and I said this, just makes the mending process a lot more difficult, and may destroy it as well I know you can understand that), and I sent a forward that had questions on it and answers. One of the questions was who wouldn't respond. And I put "Christina. We all know why she won't respond :)". Basically the reason for putting the smilie face was to let people know that I didn't expect her to respond. And all of the people on my forward list know that me and her aren't getting a long so well right now. Nothing else but that. Honestly no one on my list thought or said anything about it. But I responded to her heated e-mail calmly and nicely. I used to be one of those people that when I got into a fight I'd slander them left and right. I realise though (I am not condoneing her for slandering me or anything else like that) that she has many things on her agenda (School, family, probablly work, and baby things [for another friend not her]) that maybe she just needed to lash out at me to get some stress out or something. So by understanding that I am willing to give her the benifit of the doubt as long as she needs it because, before this, we were good friends, for a long time. Maybe we just need to sit down with a cup of coffee, for a few hours and just discuss (rationally) about what went wrong, how maybe to fix it or should we fix it. Because I guess this e-mail thing just isnt working to fix anything really. Just makeing things a lot more complicated then they need to be. But I figure that i am old enough now I should give people enough credit to answer them wether they slander me or not. I don't know maybe things will get worked out, maybe this was all just one big misunderstanding, or maybe both of us just needed a little time away from each other. I haven't given up on the friend, and I don't know if she has, I can't read her mind, and I don't think its right of me to ask her. So until then I think I should just take things slow, and maybe someday we can give each others thoughts and feelings shared another chance. But its going to take time, and from what I see, we have time, we just need to utilize it.
What I'm Listening to Now: Artist: Alien Ant Farm Album: (Self Titled) ALien Ant Farm Song: Movies

Well folks today was an AWESOME day. My car is running fine now. No need to fix anything. Thank god. I was really worried about that but hey. I love my dreamcast. I had almost forgotten how much I love it. Sega made a wonderful gameing system. Its to bad that its gone forever, but hey, cant have everything in life. Jim was so sweet. The other day he went out and baught me a dreamcast. No ones ever done that for me. I love him so much. He bought Jet Grind Radio which is one of my favorite games (besides THPS 1 and 2 of course :)) We also found A kick ass star wars game called Jedi something or other, and Test Drive 6 (That game is so awesome on Playstation 1 that we couldn't pass it up). Besides where else can I wrecklessly drive a purple viper in the middle of Italy? I was just reading online that they were going to stop Phantasy Star Online this winter. That really sucks cause im sorry, but PSO kicks Everquests behind. I loved that game. It was so nice out today! The wind was gently blowing, and the 60 degree temps with that beautiful fall orange sunshine ugh makes me happy to be alive! I was thinking of going home this weekend and meeting up with my old friend Vedds, but due to circumstances I can't do it. I really wish I could I miss her! Besides ive never drank with her when I have actually been of age to drink! Back in school she could drink anyone under the table. We had some fun times. Like the time we were out in the hallway and I got the fun idea of ripping off these plastic linings and useing them as Jedi swords. After we had smashed them into what seemed a THOUSAND peices we heard the maid of the dorms barreling down the hallway like a freight train. We just looked at each other, picked up as many peices of the broken lining and jumped into our room onto her bed trying to heatedly toss them out the window into there cold world below. Next vedds somehow squeezed out from underneath me and made a B line and slammed and locked the door. It took every ounce of strength and Jedi mobility not to crack open laughing and give ourselves away to the darkside. Needless to say we ended up not getting into trouble, but figureing out how to play soccer in a small confined hallway the next day! Some of the stories I could tell you!!! Man I am such a geek with all the star wars references and all.....But everyone has some geek in them even people who dont like to awknowledge it. I also have been playing a lot of Magic the Gathering lately. I thought I lost the passion to play, but I found out a couple of people who play battle mage around here. Since my ex stole most of my cards and keeps them for Relationship damage calateral, I guess I will never see them again. But all the players I nice to me around here, and said they would help me out in the deck department with my limited amount of cards. Anyway, im going to watch Jims kick the empires ass some more....
What I'm Listening to Now: Artist:John Williams Album: Star War's Episode I Sound Track Song: The Death March :)

Well if things couldn't get any worse other then people dying, my cars fuel pump took a big shit. All I have to say is thank GOD for jim because apperntly he can fix it.Other then that things are okay. Everyone seems happy but its so cold out. Lots and lots of accidents. THe other day as I was driving it started to snow out. TO bad I live in the flatlands, or Id be bitchin about when I get to go snowboarding. Oh well!!!! LOL can't have everything in life. Going to upgrade my computer here soon. Hopefully. I eventually want an 80GB Hard drive, a new Graphics Card, and a new mother board. I know I should just buy a new computer but, I love my CTX. It might be a peace of shit but it gives me lots of day to day challenges. Oh ya I just found out recently that my ex moved back to Madison and is working at Web Crafters and living with his friend Bill. I dont really care much I just find it intresting that he isn't in jail yet. He bails on everything, friends relatives, and jobs. I dunno, just a thought. My current boyfriend is a thousand times better. He cleans, and takes care of me (and also can take care of himself which is something Brian could never do, Brian couldn't even shower more then once a month) Jim is so sweet. That (and I know he doesn't belive this because he is so critical of himself), but as many guitar players that I know, and as many instruments that I can play, I can honestly say he is really decent and he works hard for what he accomplishes. I'm proud of him everytime he comes home with a new song that Undermine has written and he's all excited its like a kid in a candy store. Im sure that because of his good heart, that helps his music flow through his veins like blue fire. I've never met somebody so ingrained into the music he plays, hears, and annalyzes. Im really amazed sometimes with the questions and thoughts he comes up with. And from what he told me about his guitar experince, I think a lot of it is natrual. Because honestly, he loves playing so much that I think its a huge part of his soul. Maybe I am biased because of how much I care for him, but maybe not. Ive always connected on a higher level with people who are musically inclined. Look at my two closets friends. Pee has played drums nearly all her life and won multiple awards. My Cuz Sara can play piano and trumpet, and has a great ear for very good writers in music. Who knows, there are lots of factors I am sure, but no one can tell me the right one. And on that note, Im going to go work on this page some more..........
What I'm listening to now: Artist: System of a Down Album: Steal this Album Song: Johnny