Today has been a great day so far...was so soft wakeing up in the bed this morning. Though the wind last night scared the crap outta me. It just started right up..sounded like a heard of Elephants. Happy belated THanksgiving to everyone...I hope that you all had your fill of Turkey and Crannaberries!!! Today we go home to Barneveld WI. I cant wait to see everyone, especially my dog Tiny. She is so adorable.....Shes a smart ass littlle Jack Russel Terrior.....but shes a lil baby hehehe. Though she has so much energy that she doesnt know what to do lol. But she loves me. hehe.
Whoo Mudvayne in Milwaukee tonight another long long drive, but it will be worth seeing a show at the Rave again!

Wha HOO!!!!!!!!!!! Excellent news!!!!@!!!!!!!!!! Pee just got a hold of me and said she is coming out for thanksgiving weekend back home in good ole wisconsin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And is Sara comes home, you know what that means alright a Mafia Gommerdog Reunion. KICK ASS. Hopefully we can all catch Mudvayne at the Rave in Milwaukee Friday night, then go clubbing or something on Saturday. Either way I can't wait I miss my friends so much!!!!! That so just made my day. Lately around here its been really hard finding anyone to talk to or even consider to be friends, thats why when my old friends back home make time for me, I get extremly excited!!!!! Its so hard to find friends like the ones I have. Always willing to stick there neck out, defend me, and always there when I need a shoulder to cry on. GOD BLESS THEM!!!!! It is sad though that Christina has seem to cut of all communication with me, so I guess after 17 years are friendship has split ways. I don't really blame anyone, no teven myself. We are just two way differnt people, with differnt goals, and differnt aspects of life. It could have ended a lot worse, such as screaming and what not, but even when we were mad at each other that has never been our style. We have always been adults about things, and thats the way it ended....very formally. It does still hurt (I mean come on 17 years that is a really long time to be friends) but, God has a purpose for everything, and we all have to deal with it. Maybe someday, but for now, no. You can't let things like that get you down. I thought the heart felt blog entry that I begged her to read (See entry date 11/8/2002) and spent a lot of time on might have mended things, but I haven't heard anything since.....

SOrry I haven't posted in a while...I have been really busy trying to get everythign ready to go back home for Thanksgiving and go to Kentucky for Christmas to meet Jims family. I am really extremly nervous about meeting Jim's mother. I mean, she has to be really highly intelligent, and a sweet person......Look how Jim turned out he is a huge sweetheart and he is so bright! I just keep haveing these dreams, that I say something stupid to disappoint her, or make her feel that I am not good enough for Jim. And I haven't even met her. I just really hope she sees how much I love her son, how much I want to take care of him, and that I would NEVER intentionally or unintentionaly hurt him in anyway. I love Jim so much, it would kill me to hurt him.....it would seriously make my world stop turning if I did anything to hurt him or this relationship. I want to be a girlfriend he can be proud of, and not have to worry about me going out on him (which he told me the other day he has NEVER thought about that). I want him to be able to do anything he wants to and have my full support about it. I really want to spend the rest of my life with him, but I have a really hard time talking about it. Anytime the "m" word comes up, or anything to that effect I feel horrible. Mainly because I don't want to pressure him, or myself into anything. Expecially since he has been married before. I want him to know that I am the one, and not have any doubts what so ever about us. I want both of us to come to it on our own terms and not have to worry if the other isn't ready yet. I just really don't want to pressure him, I want Jim to know that no matter what I love him with all my heart.....and when he is ready to talk about it, then I will gladly listen with an open ear......